cozy.

today started all wrong. my alarm went off at 7:15am, and i realized suddenly that i needed to leave my apartment at 7:30, if i wanted to catch the parents as they were dropping off their kids at preschool (to schedule their Time 2 visit). well, i ran out the door at 7:50 and although i got to the preschool in time to talk to the parents, i forgot my laptop power cord, so i couldn't stay and observe. so i drove home. but then i had a power hour of cleaning - i can see my floors again! although it's not totally clean, it's much much better. i swear, once i have this apartment finalllly organized, it will never get messy again. i want to be so domestic - i don't understand why i find it so difficult - i think it's because i don't have enough shelves. yes, i will blame the (lack of) shelves.

then i went spinning! day one was a success. i am determined. afterwards, it had started to drizzle and i just felt at peace... i knew i was going home to my apartment that wasn't a disaster zone and i knew what i would make for dinner and i didn't feel lonely. i like those moments.

i wonder if Portland will ever mention again that i should visit him. i can't get a read on him - he calls out of the blue and we talk, and talk... and text back and forth... but then sometimes stretches of time go by... sometimes i wonder if i'm reading too much into it.

and now i'm cozy on my couch. perhaps early to bed and early to rise.